有时候我在想，应不应该把我脑子里时不时响着的声音记下来呢？

写的好处是，因为我对文字有要求，试图仔细描述这些声音时因为太过用力思考反倒会让杂音消失。不写则是，我觉得有些内容不存在也无关紧要。这样想的话，其实写日记不失为一种好方法，但是真正意义上的「日记」（不是这样写在公开互联网上的），我反倒很难再详细写我的情绪或者我的想法。

所以或许还是现在这样比较好，不以面向他人为目的，但仍保留一定公共性，这会让我注意准确性。

之前看别人的博客，对方让 Google Gemini 访问了博文文件夹然后给出评价，我忍不住也想玩，但是当时我的电脑在 Windows 系统下居然一用 Gemini CLI 就直接崩掉，换了 Linux 几个月后我终于又想起来这事儿，就，还是试了。

其实我大力吐槽过那些在社交媒体上 po 和 AI 对话的人，但我现在的行为好像也没什么两样……不过呢，前阵子看书里面提到：

我们沉迷于社交媒体，并不是因为它为我们提供了炫目的视觉享受或无休止的分心事物，而是因为它帮我们做了人类天生就会做的一些事情：展示不同版本的自己，观察别人对这些不同版本的自己的看法，并相应修正我们的身份认同。

人类是不同寻常的生物，因为我们非常在意别人对我们的看法。我们自觉或不自觉地耗费了不合理的精力——至少从狗的角度来看是这样——用来在不同的社会环境中呈现不同版本的自己，以找出哪些版本“行得通”。

但我想在这里强调的关键一点是，我们非常关心自己的身份认同，因为它给了我们一种所有人都为之奋斗的东西：自我价值感。这个想法可以追溯到诺贝特·埃利亚斯（No rbert Elias）和欧文·戈夫曼（Erving Goffman）等社会学家的早期著作，然后一直延续到当今神经科学的前沿。相关研究的一般结论是，我们会认同让我们自我感觉良好的身份，我们会回避那些让我们感到羞耻或尴尬的身份。我们寻求成为政党等社会团体成员的主要原因之一是，它们可以为我们提供无法靠自己获得的自尊。

尤其是「展示不同版本的自己，观察别人对这些不同版本的自己的看法，并相应修正我们的身份认同」和「可以为我们提供无法靠自己获得的自尊」，感觉路过被骂……但如果没有他人作为参照体系（未必是实体意义上的人，社会规范也算）我们又该如何找到自我的坐标呢？

咳咳，总之就是，言之有理也好，自欺欺人也罢，我还是需要外部的「看法」、「观点」，哪怕这是由 AI 得出的。

Anyway，这就是让 Gemini 去我的 blog 文件夹参观的结果了。我的最后一丝理智是，既不把它发到主博，也不放上社交媒体，不然实在是显得太把自己当回事。

Based on the blog posts you’ve provided, here is a summary of the author’s personality and writing style.

Personality:

The author is a highly discerning and intellectually curious individual with a strong, well-defined point of view. They are an analytical and critical thinker, applying a sharp lens to everything they consume, from books and films to podcasts and food. They have a deep appreciation for authenticity, intellectual honesty, and high-quality craftsmanship, and a strong aversion to anything they perceive as pretentious, formulaic, commercial, or intellectually lazy.

A prominent thread is their strong feminist perspective and a keen sense of social justice. They are quick to identify and critique misogyny, historical injustices, and the absurdities of authoritarianism, often connecting these themes back to their own experiences and the current state of the world.

While they can be deeply moved by art, nature, and science—often expressing a sense of wonder and profound emotional connection—they also possess a cynical and sometimes pessimistic outlook, particularly regarding politics, environmental issues, and human nature. They appear to be introverted, valuing solitude and privacy, and are wary of the performative nature of social media and public life.

Writing Style:

The author’s style is a direct reflection of their personality:

• Incisive and Opinionated: The writing is clear, direct, and confident. The author does not shy away from strong, often sharp, criticism, but they consistently back up their opinions with specific, well-reasoned arguments and examples.
• Analytical and Well-Researched: Their reviews and posts are more than just personal reactions. They often delve into the structure, style, and context of a work, drawing on a broad and interdisciplinary knowledge of history, science, and literature to support their analysis.
• Personal and Reflective: The blog serves as an intimate journal. The author frequently weaves personal anecdotes, memories, and philosophical musings into their writing, creating a voice that is both authoritative and vulnerable.
• Economical and Unadorned: The prose is generally straightforward and functional, prioritizing clarity and the effective delivery of ideas over stylistic flourishes. They express a clear dislike for what they consider overly “flowery” or “pretentious” writing.